Break down
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Baven Tan Zong Wei,
Everytime when I go to church for serivce, I keep on telling myself stop running away. If I like/love you, I should confess it now before it's too late. I always hate the feeling of jealous and regret. I just don't have the courage to do so..
Whenever I see you, I always feel like crying. I always break down. I tried to stay calm. I tried to pretend you are not the one I loved. I tried to pretend you are only my close friend/brother. I tried to pretend you are the type for me. I tried to pretend I never know you..
Why? Why must humans have feelings? I really hates feelings. Sometimes when feelings come, it always gave you the feeling of 50-50%. When you confessed to a guy, and that guy rejected you. You feel the hurt and it's deep. Tell me why should we have feelings?:'(
Maybe Wee Teck is right, loving someone is to let the person be happy and not making him to stay by your side forever. As in, if you love that person very much. You should let him be happy instead of wanting him to stay by your side.
I really don't know what to do now. I'm really breaking down very slowly.. Sometimes I wished to delete you in msn and pretend I never know you. I even wished not to go for church. Taking it as I banned myself from going to church. But I can't..
I really hate love, very.. much. I wish I could keep you forever in my heart. But how long will I stay to hold my love for you? I really don't know..
Seow Swee Wee,
I guess love is maybe not the right time for me to love you. Sigh. I hate everything. I wish to kill myself. I wish to walk away silently without anyone's knowing, peacefully. Maybe one day, I'll be gone. I might watch you guys on heaven or hell. Goodluck to chase the girl you loved in your school:) God bless you so do I.
P/s : Should I trust in love?
Pp/s : 因为是你教我怎么爱
